Part 2

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Miracle came to me .
She said tat she will b back later.. 1/30/2010 our anniversary..
Hope tat tis time is real..
GOD... if i would have a chance to talk wif u.. or tell u..
im here on the earth.. would hope that she will be back today..
I wasnt asking for more from u..
As u know that im truly love her.. n im desperate to see her..
Just give me a chance to..
I knew that i will b unlucky all the time..
But GOD i begging u.. just let us.. live happily and peacefully..
I knew my wish is hard/difficult for u to grant..becos im no one.. but a normal person like anyone else..
But i knew i have something tat no1 have it..but i just cant figure it out...
Is like a power.. i jus dono...until U gave me a clue.. or an answer..
But from wad i experience.. wad i have observed...wad i have done...
i tink i am doing the right thing.. espcially choosing a right partner wif me..
i hope that u will just let me b wif her for my rest of my life....
im ready for it.. n i wont regret..
BUT.. please..
Let us stay peacefully..
No harm,No fight,No quarrel,No family problem,NO NOTHING..NOTHING CAN BOTHER US both...
I hope GOD can do it.. n hope u can see wat im typing here.. i hope may this topic sent to u...n u could just grant me this wish..
FArewell..

To b continue..

♥Posted by Kevin >> 12:37 AM

Part 1

Friday, January 29, 2010

Recently.. Many problems came out..to me..
In this 2-3week... i have been suffering.. all alone wif full of pain..
But she told me tat she will b back for me on 29th...
The feeling to me was like.. so great.. tat my tears can drip out from my eyes..n i couldnt sleep.. tat night.*2-3hours*. becos i was happy to see her tomolo.. this was the wish.. i was waiting for..for this whole holiday..
she told me not to be worried... becos she will b coming back no matter wad..~
i was so really happy...
my heart is like ... U r the only 1 ...

The next day i woke up... i was thinking.. is she stil asleep?? cos is ardy 10am..
n den i jus don mind.. i went upstair n have CLEANed up myself.. becos im going to see her later..
U noe how i feel mar?? do u noe..

But all d sudden...she said no transport..n den i jus like so calm..becos transport wasnt a problem.. could take taxi..
but as we chat..the problem is getting worst.. n she said..father is having a xray now at clinic..

She told me. .. no transport.. n den.. she will b waiting for her sis to come back..becos sis would fetch her out to bus station.. but is at 2pm..~~

But all d sudden she say she cant make it..

U noe tat feeling.. ..after she said.. SHE WONT B BACK FOR THIS HOLIDAY..
my mind goes blank n den started..askin myself.. why is this happening to me all the time..
Why must it happen.. why GOD have to seperate us..why have to..
i have been hoping this wish may come true..
becos 30th is our monthy anniversary..

I never ask for more... i jus asked for 3-4days.. wif her.. I dint ask for more.. i jus hoping to see her..
But why.. unlucky star .. drop on me..
Hurting me day by day..
until tat i couldnt take it anymore..

I wonder if i should jus say goodbye..n start living by my own..
i wonder if this will b better.. if i made this decision..

i jus don know how..

i feel like letting go everything...

I hope this LAST post will have an ending..soon..
To b Continue......

♥Posted by Kevin >> 12:55 PM

Leaving...& Closing this Blog.. for a period of time.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

C.L.O.S.E.D

♥Posted by Kevin >> 11:25 PM

HDR testing

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Nothing to do.. haha..
so i search xia how to do.. hdr images =x
n den.. i go take xia picture using DSLR Camera.. outside of my house.
then i combine 5 pictures "low exposure to high exposure (same images)" together.. to form 1 hdr image
I dono if is working.. hope it is~

This image above is 5 RAW images combine into 1 HDR image using photoshop~

TESTING (EPIC Failed i guess) =x

The final 1..

Abit success gua~haha~
I done it wif tone mapping too~~ tat y the image looks like tat~

Done~!!

♥Posted by Kevin >> 8:04 PM

Suits For Girls & Boys..

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

I passby youtube.. & i saw this video..
I look at it.. walao.. lenglui..
haha but wads good is.. she have alot of tips for us.. especially girls..

Gonna share it to girls even i am a boy =="

The 1st video.. is about "Secret OF Clear Face"
its is suitable for both genders.. and i tink is worth.. watching it.. giving u many tips on good skincare..

Looks like... girls are interested on playing wif their hairs.. =O Try this.. helpfull tips.. & u can change ur hairstyle everyday. and have a different beautiful looks..
especially for my dear =D

This is a tutorial for girls make up.. before going to skol~

Create T-Shirt by ur own

there is more.. videos... u can either click on youtube to watch.. or maybe .. go on to her website..
http://www.bubzbeauty.com

haha.. not promoting or copyright.. is just to share to u guys..
Hope it helps~!

♥Posted by Kevin >> 10:16 PM

She have a GOLDEN HEART

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

I have a dear.. who's 18 now..
am im loving her wif all my heart..
till now..it was already 203days...
being wif her..
i have been through.. many happy n sad situation..
i noe it wasnt long,.. compare to others..

But i noe..is hard for me to b wif her last time..
I remember it was a good evening... N i was sitting in the canteen wif her..
I was nervous that time..becos i was going to express my feeling to her..
I remember i express dao so slowly.. becos.. i never expres my feeling before to any1..
when i was expressing,..my tear drops.. n end up.. nthg.. i said nthg to her..but my emoticon shows her.. tat im crying.. .. the canteen closed.. n den.. we just went off from the canteen..without saying anywords to her..

We were walking.. n den we sat on the park bench... between those beautiful big trees..
alone..by den.. i wiped off my tears.. n slowly express my feeling to her..
She noes that it is too early for her.. to b wif me ... becos she jus broke up wif her ex..
But i still tries...no matter what... i do wateva i can .. expressing my love.. to her..
But she rejected me..
by jus moving her head left n right...
my mind was empty.. after that...
but all d sudden.. she kissed me on my lips.. n she say.. she accept me =D.. i was stunned wif my 2 big eye opens.. n my smiles goes U shape ..
n i knelt down to the ground n promise her.. tat i oni love her the most.. n i will alwis give her happiness to her.."no scolding" and i will never leave her no matter wad...until d day we dies..
=O we back wif no bus.. but taxi.. becos it was already so late =O

but what i can conclude =

She has.. a loyal & a good heart.. to me...
She can withstand every action i take, even if is bad to her.. or a good thing to her.
She trust me.. so am i..
She gave everything to me... but there are limits..between us.
There is certain things that she cant gives me.. but i hope she is trying to..
I know..shes the best for me...
but i wasnt the best for her.. even she told me im the best..
But..i wanted to give her happines.s. n living wif no wars between us..
But i guess..it is imposible.. becos couple should have wars.. someday..
i really wanted to stay by her side... always..
But there is something.. that is trying to tear us apart..
Is not a person.. but a feeling..
The feeling is trying to tear us apart..
How pain isit.. i think i still can goes on..
i Feel the pain. .. especially now..
But what can i do??..
I have to stay strong..
n goes on wif her happily..
i noe is hard sometimes...
but im trying..gets the bad feeling away from us..
She said.. i have a weak heart...
But shes supporting me.. to have a stronger heart..

From wad i can conclude....
Shes the best.. n the oni 1 person tat i really can love.. n can trust..

Is not tat im praising her... But is true about my love..
I have bad times.. wif her oftenly.. But we still continue... becos we noe tat my love and her love.. are sealed together.. n would not tear apart forever..

Cheers babe..~

Good NIte~

♥Posted by Kevin >> 1:37 AM

McD

Monday, January 18, 2010

Why not we try ordering like tat?? in msia???
haha

♥Posted by Kevin >> 11:31 PM

3days suffering...

Day Day..
hiding myself in the room..looking on the laptop..calculating the date,time tat will bring my hapines back..... wondering when i will get a chance to
see u coming back.. but end up, saying "i wll try my best to come back"...
Alrite n den.. try = 22nd?? the day before start skol? or before cny?? when i saw it was
22nd.. my hearts shattered...
My heart cried badly.. till my tears were coming out from my eyes... n i was thinking.
isit.. worth crying for her....
why must i...
22nd. was long enuff..
i wasnt patient.. at all....
But she was brave enough for giving me excuses... asking me to wait for her... be patient...
But.. i cant.. seriously...
I have no one left.. but her...
im now jus nthg.. but an idiot.. who give all my heart to her. .. n now ending up.. loneliness when shes not around.. why must i..
GIving my heart to her was the right thing .. but
no1 will appreciate it.. no matter how hard i tries..
Sigh...
What now... wait??
I realy hope she understand me ...
understand.. about my love to her.
understand.. what am i when shes not beside me..
understand.. my feeling.
understand.. how i felt..
understand.. what is she typing to me right now..
i realy hope she understand me..
even though.. i still love her tat much..
i really hope this love between us.. will goes on.. but...
i scared... 1day.. it will stop if any bad things hapen between us
.. i dono..

Farewell

♥Posted by Kevin >> 9:04 PM

On my bed rolling

Oh well.. im bored now.. took my camera out take some photos of my animes cd that i bought just now.. at t1..
damn cheapp sia... 1st time saw dao so cheap geh movies =D

happi~~

but i still wan my dear to b wif my side... now n owis aizz

♥Posted by Kevin >> 12:40 AM

Sem Break

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Alright... Im back from homeworks,assignments,exam & etc stuffs...
Finally i got a free time to get myself a good rest...
I will b starting holiday from 17th january until 21st february.. n that was
a freaking long sem break for me...
I wanted my dear.. to stay wif me... for this few weeks.. but she cant make it...
becos she have to go back n help her mom... during cny.. n she given me many excuses
n decided to go back ipoh today... but not going back wif me..
N now.. i am soo...like.. i dono.. empty mind... dono wad to do.. lacking out of moods.. without her..
zzzZ..
worst thing is...might b a big possibilties that i wont b celebrate valentine day wif her.. o.O n oso cny.. haiz..My life owis sucks during sem break...
i wont have a chance to take her out for a trip.. or anything..
what we do??.. sms sms sms.. msn msn msn.. call call call.. tats all for this whole month..
i was like Zzzzz wth...

aanyway. im back from hell.. i nid to keep on movin... i cant jus sit here but i have to try my best to get a plan for my hooliday... Hope she was beside me right now...
aarrg...

Rolling on my bed..
Thinking of her.. day n night..
Heart is like a large hole.. without her..
Might b i.. really miss her too much..
But no matter how much i miss..
She wil just get impressed.. but she wont b.. here for me.. during holiday..
I hate her.. when shes not beside me..
but i love her very much.. becos i know shes the best for me..

farewell... n good night.

♥Posted by Kevin >> 11:24 PM

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